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I really wanna see you

I really wanna be with you

I really wanna see you, Lord

But it takes so long, my Lord

My sweet Lord

My Lord

My Lord

- "My Sweet Lord" by George Harrison

Up until recently, when I am faced with this question I never really had an answer to it. Now, I finally have an answer to it. It is not just surface level, but it carries weight and meaning. Who (or who all) is credited for this new found love of George Harrison? Well in order to answer that we have to travel back to Carrollton, TX.

In middle school and high school, I wanted to cement myself as the "music girl". I made mix CD's using my dad's computer that had Limewire downloaded on to it (RIP Limewire). Sometimes I would spend hours on end downloading and selecting songs to put on my mixes. It was a skill, an art, I so desperately wanted to perfect. I think I got this desire to create the perfect CD from my sister. My sister and I are nine years apart. Some days (and for me these were the best days) she would take me to school and on the rarest occasions. In her 1995 white Mazda MX-3, she would take out a CD folder containing- in my mind- thousands of CDs. My favorite CDs were the ones that she made herself. At the same computer I worked on, she had constructed these CD's meticulously. Each CD introduced me to another world. Car rides, never allowed for me to fully explore these places, that's why when it did happen I would scramble to ask her questions about who was on the CD.

On each mix CD she created, she put the songs on it in sharpie. Creating a spiral effect, the song created this physical design on each CD. I then started to do that with my own mixes. When she went to college, I became even more engrossed in making these mixes. I had started to meet people with the same passion for exploring different types of music, so it was good practice. When I started driving (my junior year of high school), I had a stack pretty comparable to my sister's---or so I thought. I created these mixes for my friends for every major holiday, event, birthday...any significant event you name it. If you were close to me, it was guaranteed I was going to make you a CD. I loved the idea of exchanging music this way. One person in particular, one of my best friends, always pestered me about making CDs for her. While riding in her car, we listened to CDs that she had stacked away in her glove compartment. I picked one out. A man with long hair and a park ranger-looking hat stared back at me. He was in an open field, with trees lining the background. I asked her a couple of questions. "George Harrison? That name sounds so familiar," I said to her. Then, she told me about Harrison.

At that moment, we didn't really go in depth about the man. We only seemed to talk about "My Sweet Lord" as it played in her car. The song filled the car and with each passing verse seemed to build and build. Unfortunately, after that moment, I kind of forgot about the song. Years passed.

It came back into my life, around the time I had my own radio show on KCOU. The song was on the MegaSeg, the device we used to play music on air. I would play it every once in a while, usually towards the end to close out the rotation show I had. The song would be put me at ease.

"My Sweet Lord" is one of the first spiritual songs of its kind. It is not just the content of the song itself, but the melody. It sounds like a spiritual hymn, yearning for something. The first part of the song, illustrates Harrison's impatience with God. He wants to see God, but is growing tired of not being able to do that. Layered on top of this, "Hallelujah" drives the point home. Then, without warning, "Hallelujah" turns into "Hare Krishna" and then again the two words are used synonymously. Although it is a symbol of Harrison moving away from the church, it also represents something else. These two statements are very much the same. They reach out for the same thing. As I said earlier, Phil Spector's "Wall of Sound" allows for the incredible build up exhibited in the song.

It allows for the music to take up this kind of spiritual space, leaving no sense of emptiness. At the peak of the build up, it leads to Harrison's revelation that patience is key. One must be patient when it comes to seeking spiritual satisfaction. Without it, we lose sight of what we believe in.

This song, along with countless others (when Harrison was a Beatle), all have given me the same emotions---warmth, comfort and happiness. Whether it be "Here Comes the Sun", "Got My Mind Set On You", "Give Me Love (Give Me Peace on Earth)", the emotions are the still the same.